~The Lonely Vocalist~

he sang for himself , not for others to hear

to button out the rue , he could no longer bear

he was lonesome , with nobody to fear

felt better , with his insides much clear

he sang ideating her , his only dear

no matter if now , it is a dream mere ..

he sang for himself, n for his only friend

for whom he waited , every rule to bend

was perfect for him , the rightmost blend

made only 1 mistake , one he couldnt fend

one that ruined them , one he could never mend

heard time would heal , the trauma didnt end

so he sings , not for others to commend

but in hope , one day his feels would be send ..

27 aug 07

5 30 pm

To NAVYA

date- 16 dec 2006

time 10 am

I am travelling in a train from kgp to delhi .

In the same appartment is a baby girl , 7 yrs of age , whose hyper active naughtiness reminds me of my childhood .

The more i watch her NATURALNESS , the more i get bewitched .

In the morning , before leaving , i hand her a note .

She tries to read with her parents , but cannot .

So her mother reads her the GIFT .

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To Navya ,

Amazing r the childhood days ,

Unique r their mischievous ways .

Given the proper care ,

shapes our character , sets our base .

Free from any worries ,

careless of of any gaze .

Entangled in this world's maze ,

I realise

childhood memories r where my heart lays .

But gone r the days , when i used to be a child .

Used to be exuberant , used to be wild .

Bubbled with energy , never was i mild .

Grief didnt exist , each day i smiled .

Being a grown up , is like being tiled .

Just wanted to show , how i wish ,

how i long , to again be a child .

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Navya listened intently n after the end , asked " mummy . kya likha hai " .

I smiled n answered " beta abhi aapke samajh me nahi aayega , n jab aayega tab aap bade ho chuke hoge , like me :) " .

And her mother pouched that note , which i wrote on a SPORTSTAR white page , and we departed .

The above pic needs mention as i had completely forgotten this poem , when this pic caught my eye n instantly a word came out , NAVYA .

enjoi

6:47 am

19 aug 2007

IIT kgp

..... PROTECT ME FROM WAT I WANT .....

Read it today on a friend's status message on gtalk .
At 1st i also , like most of u , laughed with a shrug,
" wat in the world is that suppose to mean !! ".
Even dared to ask the guy its entailment . :O

Ofcourse , there wasnt any reply .
That roused my ever so keen interest .
Not concerning my friend's wants n want nots ! ,
But the bewildering statement . :O

Due to various earthly obligations n all ,
didnt really have the chance to digest the msg .
But kept ringing bells even in class ,
And with the prof lecturing how natural RUBBER is formed ! ,
Wasnt long before i had devoted the full attention it rightly deserved ,
" Protect me from wat i want. " !!!

Wat exactly do we each of us want ?
Think HARD n TRUE , without ne wordly constraints ,
n u ll notice 1 common outcome ,
some of ur WANTS would end up giving goosebumps to u ,
create tremors if released publically .

Of course taking into full consideration that ,
whenever our human mind is bestowed with such rare freedom ,
limits , those set by this mortal faux world ,
r crossed .

But still , shud really we ashamed of some of our WANTS ,

shudnt we atleast have the freedom of dreaming abt our WANTS ,

or shud we keep reminding our soul , that we CANT want such WANTS !
thats from where its all cming , this , PROTECT me from wat i WANT .

Y all these rules n limits , surely not created by nature ,
but by us , probably out of insecurity .
Isnt the set of laws provided by nature enough ?
that we r introducing further layers .

N all must be accused ,
all who r following , with or without a fake smile ,
Its high time , when we give these rules a refreshing ,
n follow the only MASTER rule mother nature defined ,
to live NATURALLY .

Until that time , lets share the same thought ,
PROTECT me from wat I WANT .



08-08-07
10 pm