...........disgustingly confused...........

confusion is the worst state of mind , i know .
compels one to leave happiness n track sorrow.
its a sick feeling , which ceases one to grow .
thats really the last thing one should ever borrow .

but i know , i know because i m feeling it today .
didnt sleep much last night , college was disturbing neway .
it seems unless i get IT done , everything will just seem grey.
IT is my PAST , the past which has kept burning all the way .

now confusion has a disgusting property as we all know .
u r never sure wats the exact topic of confusion n all this mood flow.
its really maddening as u dont know where to bow or wat to show .
its really a fking phase where u arent sure wat u really want to know !

and then comes the question of wats 'nomral' .
another disgusting taboo which suits me to the minimal .
if u really think behaving normal is COOL , refer http://grassonfire.blogspot.com .
stationary warning : decoding the encrypted code up there triggers an atom bom .

well y am i confused , the Q still stands .
would luv to skip this , if it were in my hands .
but its not , thats for sure .
thats y i m here , searching a cure .

obviously it has to be related to the ultimate search string .
the string which ll complete ur life , will make u sing .
that true love is the only thing which matters .
alas! thats the reason y my heart s in shatters .

TRUE LOVE , it would a path breaking discovery if man can ever define IT .
yups , this is the source of my confusion which is eating me bit ny bit .
its not the Q of where to find IT or where to look .
confusion is whether u shud find it or wait for IT to get book .

whether u shud dive into ur PAST or dwell in ur PRESENT .
its confusing u know , because ur PAST constructs ur PRESENT .




(phew ! )